| am going out with gibbo
he is such a sweetie
lv him 2 bits
lol
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| finished with jon
now kinda meetin gibbo
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| so i finished scott...........
am goin out wit jon now
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| ok scrap that me and scott are talking again adn wwe are the flirty couple that we always were.
just seen mona lisa smile
it was bloody good
i did it again last night u no the arm thing!!
dammit
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| well i think the relationship with scott has now rashed and burned. we havnt talked since last thursday and i understand that he is busy revising with his A levels but e could at least txt me and if he stildoesnt have £ on his fone he cud txt me on his 8s it really isnt hard. but anyway its his loss not mine i will just have to moove on.AGAIN!lol. realtionships really confussle me. and im realy glad that someoe else knows how irritating it is when people tell you not to hurt yourself. no i dont want to die and the moment i am ok but sometimes i just need to get everything that is piling up inside of me out in the open and i have found a way that in the mid term works. OK, after a while i start to feel te same but it int usually untill a couple of months after and during that period of time im fine if not really happy. no one can stay happy all of the time and i just try not to let things get to me. like the fact that last week my own mum basically tole me that i dont ever work hard enough and that i have failed all of their expectaions and then she wonders why im so upsett with her i mean HELLO. so i did what andy rational teenager would do and i moved out for a few days and went to stay with y gran ust so i could get things into perspective. i havnt been ''knife happy' for a while now and i really dont want to do it again because yer in the long term it sucks ass and it can cause piss awful tension between me and my m8s. who by the way i feel really bad towards cos i feel like i have let them down when i do do it. im really scared of myself iv tried it all once so i know i might do it again............i think i may need to get some help!!!
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